Feels like I am on an erratic roller coaster... Up, down, up, down.......  I just hope it doesn't break!!  My emotions are so out of control.  I am trying to wait patiently for the "happy medium".....
I suppose having forty some years to deal with may take a while.  I find myself continually going back, sometimes waaayyy back in time, to find myself and grab my hand and heart and heal whatever hurt(s) are lingering.....  Children are so vulnerable.  The pains start at such a young age.  Depending on the circumstances, pain can be so real so soon in our lives.  This makes me aware of how rough it must be for so many kids these days. : (     Parents try to do their best; sometimes their best just isn't good enough.
So we are left on our own to find a way to put the pieces back together and make our lives work for us.  To find peace, joy and happiness.  Unfortunately so many people don't ever have the courage to go out and find these things for themselves.
I am so thankful I have found the courage!  Through every struggle, every heartache, every tear, I know I am closer to finding my true peace, joy and happiness...
For that Lord, I am Thankful!!