I am not a person who enjoys the drops and turns and unexpected loops of a roller coaster. I find myself on an active one. Mentally and emotionally I am trying to hang on. Lord I need your hand.
I am living a completely new life with a man who adores me beyond belief. He supports me in every way, constantly encouraging me and giving me complete freedom to be who I am. I am completely in love with this man who is an extension of me as I am of him. Amazing how the attacks on him, the manipulations, the stresses affect me. I struggle to let it all go but as it is thrown at him, I feel it so strongly. I struggle with how and why I am so affected. I believe it is my love connection to him. We truly are one.
Lord, you know these struggles, and I know you have a plan for us. Please help me deal with my emotions. I am so confused by what I am feeling regarding the other people involved in his life. I have lived life just scraping by for all these years; now I see the other side..... It is not pretty.
All the greed and selfishness....
So depressing...
I do truly believe we humans are happier having little possessions and much faith; what I see are people with every "thing", and no happiness.
Lord, I pray you will help me find my great faith again....
