Yesterday at work I asked a guy for water.  He works at the Lobby Cafe.  We had a short conversation about drinking on the job; which I'm not sure is allowed in my position in public; it was a funny sort of conversation that ended with him stating that I should be working at a church not a casino : )
Obviously I was caught in my innocent mode - It was comical, made me laugh!
Thank you Lord for these times when you show me my vulnerable side.  I love reflecting innocence and vulnerability.  Continue to use me to bring You to mind through my smile, actions, conversations, etc. when dealing with others each day.
 I am amazed to think how long I have been on this earth, thinking I have missed out on so many things, yet I realize how fortunate I am to have You, Lord to guide me and show me all I need to know and experience as a grown woman!  So many people experience so many things throughout their lives blindly, without You.  How fortunate I am to walk with You as I experience these things called life!
Thank you Lord for the lessons you are teaching me and holding my hand through Life!  I Love You with All My Heart....

So many "Christians" are against Christian music.  I just want to say, I have been ministered to in such a wonderful way through the lyrics in so many of the christian songs I have learned these past few years!  I have had a schedule that hasn't allowed me to attend church regularly and the churches I have attended are so small they are like little families, literally.  Most members are related to each other in some way so they are bonded together very tightly.  Anyway, back to the subject; I currently listen to 106.9 The Light, (www.1069thelight.org), where many different types of music are played.  God has used these songs to touch my heart and soul to the core.  One of my favorites is Kutless - What Faith Can Do.  I also like Matthew West - Through the Motions.  Whenever I am driving I listen to these ministering musicians.  This station also has some wonderful preaching in the afternoon and evenings.  My suggestion:  Don't knock something before you give it a good look; it just might be the thing you are looking for!  Thank you Lord for opening my heart, mind and soul to all avenues that bring me closer to your LOVE!

Thoughts are interesting....
We have all heard the question, " If you knew you had only so many days left on earth, how would you spend them?"

I was thinking, we should all be spending every day as if it is our last.  We are not guaranteed tomorrow.  Our days are numbered by God.  We are here for a purpose; to share His Love, to show His Joy, to shine His Light, to give His Hope to the world around us.

Remember to live for the Lord every day; share the love he has for you with those around you!

Today was a heart to heart talk about life!  I expressed how I feel about anger, teasing, cursing, poking, etc.; about hurt feelings; about the words love not meaning much without actions....
I tried to put it all out there, in plain sight.  I stated that I have always wanted a change in him; now I see my wanting him to change doesn't matter, what matters is what I want for me.  I am going through a major life changing, growing stage right now and I am ready for it.  I realize I need something more in my life.  I want to live my life smiling and happy; radiating God's Love through my smile!  I now know I deserve to be happy all the days of my life.
God, you are in total control of my life; use me as you have planned!  Give me the strength to move forward with whatever you want me to do!  Thank you for the opportunities you have given me and the people you have brought into my life to show me my potential!  I love you Lord with all my heart, mind and soul!  AMEN!

Quotes on Change

• “The real problem for the creative person is getting over the resistance of those who don’t want to change.”     —Unknown

• “I cannot say whether things will get better if we change; what I can say is they must change if they are to get better.”    —Georg C. Lichtenberg

• “The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers.”    —M. Scott Peck

• “It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power.”    —Alan Cohen

• “Change is the essence of life. Be willing to surrender what you are for what you could become.”

              —Unknown

Today is my birthday; I am beginning my 48th year on earth and I realize how lonely I am.  My friend helped me see how the empty nest syndrome is already affecting me.  I have tried for years to prepare for the time when the kids go off on their own.  I can accept them growing up and beginning their own lives; what I cannot accept is the fact that I have nobody to share this time with.  My husband is not the friend I hoped he would be.  I have tried every way I can think of to build a friendship with him; to create the bonds needed for our future; with no success.  Time and again we end up back at the same place, never moving forward toward any common goal of sharing, loving, respecting each other.  We are, and have been, stuck in a rut for a long, long time.  Reality tells me there is no chance of our situation changing.  I have found myself saying over and over at work, that change is important; that sometimes when we are in a position for a long time we can't see what is needed to improve the situation; that we become comfortable with the way things are.  Funny how I could say and see this at work after making a drastic change myself, but not see it in my life......

47 years on this earth and just now realizing what is really important to "me"!  It amazes me to think I could hide away this long.  Why does the human mind allow us to deny ourselves of knowing who and what we are and desire?  Life is short; our future is determined; we all know the end of the story, why not live out the life we have been given?  I do believe God wants us to be happy while we are here.  I believe it is much easier to shine His light if we are truly happy.
Lord, let me step aside and allow you to work in my life, bring me to the point that you can fully use me to shine for you.
"Be still, Cindy, and know that I am GOD!"
"Fear not, for I am with thee"......

The Intellectual Hippie

You love to help people, but usually find unconventional and subtle ways of doing it. You're fascinated by what the human mind is capable of creating, and seek the world for moments to enrich your life. You love psychology and philosophy. Your respect for all living beings makes you a humble and likeable person, and the biggest reward is when you get to impart your knowledge to those around you.

Interesting results of a free personality test I received at www.stumbleupon.com (one of my newest favorite places to visit )

Lord, you are Awesome!  Continue to strengthen me daily.  Remind me that you have not given me a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind....  As I grow in your grace these coming days, Lord, show me your will!  Help me to meditate on your word and hide it in my heart; to know your will at my most vulnerable moments.  I cannot continue to fight this battle alone.  I love you Lord, I want to become the person you have made me to become.  Give me wisdom to follow the path you have for my life.  In you precious name I pray, AMEN! : )

Welcome!  The first thought I had about setting up this blog was how easy it was to choose the name.  My life lessons revolve around these words.  Oh how I wish I were surrounded by the same.

My next thought was how easy it was to get this blog name.  So many names are taken;  when we try to choose any type of e-mail, facebook, or other techno name we always have to be creative to make what we want work because someone, if not many people, has chosen the same words as their identifier.....
Hmmmm.... First try on this one.  I guess there aren't too many people on the same page?