Today was a heart to heart talk about life!  I expressed how I feel about anger, teasing, cursing, poking, etc.; about hurt feelings; about the words love not meaning much without actions....
I tried to put it all out there, in plain sight.  I stated that I have always wanted a change in him; now I see my wanting him to change doesn't matter, what matters is what I want for me.  I am going through a major life changing, growing stage right now and I am ready for it.  I realize I need something more in my life.  I want to live my life smiling and happy; radiating God's Love through my smile!  I now know I deserve to be happy all the days of my life.
God, you are in total control of my life; use me as you have planned!  Give me the strength to move forward with whatever you want me to do!  Thank you for the opportunities you have given me and the people you have brought into my life to show me my potential!  I love you Lord with all my heart, mind and soul!  AMEN!