So this is where I am.... I think people see me as holding it together; really, I do fall apart at times.  I am always hoping the down times are healing times.  I believe I am growing stronger each day.  When Justen makes it home it will be a blessing to have someone here to share life with.  He is grown up enough to have his own life; we will do our own things and share experiences together as well.  I have told him he will be kind of living on his own, making his own way in a sense.  I so look forward to bonding with him in a different way than before.  He is my son and I can't wait to see him again.  One day, I believe it will be Kaitlyn returning as well.   : )   Keep growing me stronger Lord!!