This call was a bit difficult.  He, once again, asked if I was ready for him to come home.  I asked why he left.  He said he didn't know.  I told him he couldn't just go back and forth and I didn't think it would work for him to just move back here and back into the house.  I told him if he had moved somewhere close by we maybe could have dated and tried to start over.  He said, did I know, before long, it was going to be too late for him.  I said, how do you know it isn't already too late for me?  He said he wouldn't bother me anymore.......  : (
This is very difficult, but I believe it is necessary to move on from such a disfunctional relationship.  In a way, I still feel like he is trying to be in control when he says it will be too late for him, not even thinking about me.  But that isn't a new thing in our relationship.  I just want to get my life sorted out and see him find something that will truly make him happy.  Together we = misery...