I thought the hard part was telling him to go.....  then I thought all of them leaving was tough.....  now, I find myself talking with him about our relationship, or lack of it, trying to understand how I got to this place in my life...  This is difficult!  I never knew the emotional roller coaster I was in for.  The struggle to find myself, as well as let go of people who have been in my daily life so long.....  Lord, I need your strength to hold me up!  Please let these be healing tears.....
He would come back in a second, if I said that is what I wanted.....  I just know deep in my heart that isn't where my life is headed.  I am ready to move on, no matter how lonely and painful the path may be.  I believe the Lord has things planned for me that I cannot even begin to imagine.
Heal each of us Lord as we journey through this life.  Help him find his way to true happiness; help my kids find out what life is really all about.  Guide and protect them all, each and every day!
I love you Lord with all my heart.  Help me to stay focused....