Today was a tough day at home.  Another heart to heart talk.... with no real good results.  I am trying to share the fact that my trying days are over.  My feelings have changed; I feel it is time for me to move on.  He is saying how much he loves me and that he thinks we are soul mates and that he needs me to love him.  What he doesn't realize is how I have loved him with all my heart for all these years and he didn't appreciate it.  So he apologizes for that but what does that do for me now?  I am important as a person; I want to stop feeling manipulated.  I am recognizing as I go about my daily life there are many things I do to avoid issues with him; I set up my life around how he will react to a situation.  I don't want to live this way any more.  I am struggling with finding myself, recognizing my value, trying to draw closer to the Lord.
I went to work and laughed throughout the night.  I was flattered when I found out the first winner was wishing he could have had his "picture made" with me....  Our team was great; we cut up all night and just had fun!!
I sure needed that.
Lord, help me through this difficult time; help me to be still and know that you are GOD!  You will work this out for me in your time.  I love you!  AMEN.....