Just got back from a weekend with momma Joyce.  Oh how I needed that!  It was such a blessing to have her to talk with about all the changes going on in my life.  I realized over and over, as I talked her ear off, how God has worked in my life for so long to put things in order for me.
All of my conversations gave God the glory for my new found contentment and happiness.
Of course I am emotional as I journey through this loss.... : (
My family is struggling with tough times; the grass isn't greener in Oregon like they thought.  Living at grandma's house is very difficult and it will be for a while, until they have a place of their own.  I had a call today from him and low and behold, he was still trying to make me feel bad for him leaving.... (he can't believe I made them leave)???

This will be a long, tough journey to get through but with God,  ALL things are possible!!!

I told him he needs to have Faith...  He really doesn't want to hear anything I have to say.  I think he is waiting for me to tell or ask him to come back.  That is not going to happen.

I now realize I am valuable as a person; God made me beautiful, special, lovely in His eyes, and nobody will ever manipulate or control me again.  All my life I have had or allowed someone to be in control.  Not any more.

I am in control, with God as my pilot!
Lord, continue to give me strength and wisdom as I walk through this part of the journey....AMEN!!!